the thing is - i KNOW what happened to my son. i mean, yes i have moments where i think the MRI is wrong. or i think that maybe they looked at someone else's MRI and mixed them up and really my son is fine. i once read about that happening actually. on babycenter.com, some woman's doctor told her that her baby had a stroke. a year later or something, they went to another doctor and found out that her baby never actually had a stroke. it probably was brain swelling or something that went away on its own maybe.
anyways, the point of this post is that i KNOW what happened to my son. he suffered a stroke 3 weeks before birth and another one the week of his birth. he's most likely going to have right side motor issues. yet whenever i see a stroke sign, i go into freakout mode and panic. i don't know why? because i know what he has so why am i shocked to see signs or issues appear? we went to the rehab doctor a couple months ago and she said, his patella (sp?) reflex was brisk. and i was like, "are you sure? why does he have that??" and she's all, "because of his brain injury". i mean, he has an injury & i know that. i know he's most likely going to show SOMETHING. so why do i freak out like this?? i see him play with toys more with his left hand and i panic. i mean, i should expect these things though, right? maybe depite all my negativity, i think deep down inside i had a lot of hope that he might be one of the lucky 24% of babies who never have any signs appear (i read that 76% of babies have CP or noticeable motor issues from strokes).
i don't know what i'm talking about. i don't know if i make any sense.
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